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That's it, then
Sep. 25th, 2003 07:52 pmI have finally admitted defeat, and as of the end of October, I will only be working 4 days a week.
I'm tired of being so tired and feeling like I'm about to lose it all the time. I thought that I needed to hang in there until the end of the year, but I did the math, and I don't *need* the money that badly. (Much as I like shopping without consequences). It just means I'll be paying back my loan when the bank wants rather than when I wanted to. We can still afford to go to France, but it'll be at my friend's cottage instead of travelling around like last time. If I'm very careful I can even afford to go to Convergence (um. If anyone can give me a lift from Toronto).
We will have to live without a new kitchen for a while longer and I'm not entirely sure where the money for the new shed is going to come from. But we need a new shed. How sad is that? If we're getting a new TV ever I have to buy it this month.
Most importantly, I NEED TO STOP RANDOMLY BUYING SHIT[1]. So far, all the resolutions in the world haven't worked, but I'm pretty sure not actually having the income will do the trick.
The best bit is, that if at any point I need the money I can do the extra day and get paid for it, or go back full time at any time.
Yesterday I felt like I was giving up, but today I'm feeling more positive. I'll be doing what everybody says they want to do but can't afford. I need to start driving again so that I can do the shopping and other cruddy errands that take up the weekend. I just have to get through the next month. Urgh.
[1] Except Neil Gaiman product, obviously.
I'm tired of being so tired and feeling like I'm about to lose it all the time. I thought that I needed to hang in there until the end of the year, but I did the math, and I don't *need* the money that badly. (Much as I like shopping without consequences). It just means I'll be paying back my loan when the bank wants rather than when I wanted to. We can still afford to go to France, but it'll be at my friend's cottage instead of travelling around like last time. If I'm very careful I can even afford to go to Convergence (um. If anyone can give me a lift from Toronto).
We will have to live without a new kitchen for a while longer and I'm not entirely sure where the money for the new shed is going to come from. But we need a new shed. How sad is that? If we're getting a new TV ever I have to buy it this month.
Most importantly, I NEED TO STOP RANDOMLY BUYING SHIT[1]. So far, all the resolutions in the world haven't worked, but I'm pretty sure not actually having the income will do the trick.
The best bit is, that if at any point I need the money I can do the extra day and get paid for it, or go back full time at any time.
Yesterday I felt like I was giving up, but today I'm feeling more positive. I'll be doing what everybody says they want to do but can't afford. I need to start driving again so that I can do the shopping and other cruddy errands that take up the weekend. I just have to get through the next month. Urgh.
[1] Except Neil Gaiman product, obviously.
